wthellmichelle:

How one person can mean so much to you. How all it takes is one person to make or break your day, to put a smile on your face and make you want to cry. How one person is able to change your mood effortlessly, whether it be with their words or their unintended actions. What’s even more amazing is how one stranger can turn into a once familiar stranger, from someone whom you’d wish you had met earlier, to someone whom you’d wish to never have met.

But it seems impossible to bring him back now. Remember when we truly loved each other? I swear we could write a book with our story; we’ve overcame so many obstacles just so we could be together. It’s hard to believe that just over 18 months time the guy who gave me the best feeling in the world is now giving me the worst pain.
I’ve been trying to move on by just not thinking about you or hating you. But now I wonder if you are truly happy? Truly, truly happy? If the way you are living life right now, is the way you want to be, forever. I want you to read what you said almost 2 years ago. But I’m scared I’m still holding hope for you. I don’t want to be here for you when you think you’ll change, test the waters and just end up hurting me again. You said you’re sorry for everything you’ve done to me. Do you even know what you’ve done? Are you really sorry? Am I just a big regret for you?
Ugh, I just want you out of my head. Please. Please. Please. Stop making me weak & vulnerable.